I have smoked a good amount of weed in my day. Most of it was a great time, but occasionally it was horrifying. Like anything in life, you win some, you lose some.
One of the things about marijuana that always amazes me is its ability to help me see clearly. It feels quite trite to say though. We all know that stoner who proselytizes, "the herb frees your soul, man!"
Or the pothead who does absolutely nothing and justifies it by trying to argue that he can actually see the world more clearly and we just don't get it. Oh, and to that I respond, just because you're enlightened, you shouldn't sit in own your Cheetos dust for two days straight (in the common area of shared apartment) without showering or changing your clothes... I may be a little bitter about something.
Either way, I have been lucky enough to feel like marijuana can help me have enlightened realizations. At times, it is the drug's ability to help me focus on subtle idiosyncrasies of myself and those around me because I'm usually too aloof to notice.
In other ways, pot rewired something in my head to help me realize ideas I've either been repressing or unsure how to get to.
Most of these stoned "come to Jesus" moments revolve around people: my friends, love interests, or myself. From talking to my fellow smokers, I know this a thing. And these are the high-deas we all have about people like our friends, love interests, and ourselves.
1. I shouldn't spend time with you anymore.
You realize your relationship with someone, a friend or love interest, is not right for you now (or never has been or never will be). Maybe it's the person, the situation, or you, but you suddenly see that it's anywhere from not good to toxic. It could mean a gentle parting of ways, a ghosting, or a break up, but either way, the marijuana helped you see it's the right thing to do.
2. I don't like you like I thought I did.
Perhaps the dynamic between the two of you is off. On the other hand, you might just have been slapped in the face with what kind of person he or she actually is. Maybe he's the type that claps when a plane lands or she is rude to waiters or they are someone who never listens. A deal breaker just suddenly materializes, and you know you don't really like them. These are scary, but important realizations.
3. This person is my spirit animal.
These are much happier than number two. It could be a person you know is your best friend or just a friend or a love interest, but when you are high, your altered state of mind unexpectedly relays or emphasizes that this is your fucking person. They are special, not just in general (although this is probably true), but special to you. And you couldn't be happier that the stars and bongs aligned to land you next to each other watching Cheech and Chong.
4. Did we just become best friends? YUP.
Someone you just met or knew but didn't really know suddenly emerges as a ray of fucking light (and it's not the lighter, it's the metaphoric halo around their head). You suddenly realize you are on the same wavelength as this person and it feels beautiful.
5. I'm the worst.
If you haven't had a high experience where you completely shit on every aspect of your being, you haven't smoked enough weed. I'm not saying it's good, but it is inevitable. A common theme is that I'm wasting my potential or not being the best or most real version of myself.
6. Is there something wrong with me and everyone knows except me?
One time when I was high, I convinced myself I had autism and that everyone knew, but didn't tell me because they felt bad. I woke up the next day with a note on my phone that said, "You're on the spectrum. It's OK though." When I told my friend, she said that she had had the same experience. I kept realizing that many people have a similar realization. While maybe some of you do have this self-diagnosed issue, you probably don't. You are just realizing insecurities.
7. But am I the next Neil deGrasse Tyson?
Something, anything, sparks an unprompted formation of knowledge. Sometimes it's unbelievably complex, but sometimes it's so simple it seems crazy that you never saw it in the first place. These high thoughts can indeed sometimes be groundbreaking. I know because I keep a high journal. And then other times, it doesn't seem that special. Or at least your recollection of the realization seems insignificant. Like the time I realized allergies was your body rejecting something. Yeah, but like, did anyone ever contest that?